dumb-drunk

9 Feb

Sometimes you advance towards a specific destination with not just a sense of purpose and direction, but with a sense of what to expect, and you progress assured in the knowledge that the world you know will be as you know it and have always known it.

When I visited my former boarding house the other week, I knew what I would find there. I did not know of course that there were new boarders there or that the owner had been sick for months, or for how I long I don’t know, but I knew where my dusty shoes would be and that my books would be on the shelves; I knew how the paintings of my old room would be hanging, that the half-consumed gin and empty cigarette packs would be under my bed, and so on. I knew my roommate might be there, and if he wasn’t I knew he would be on another day.

Sometimes I realize that I exist with the sense that life goes on in a regular manner, that I can breathe because I am meant to and air is air, that ‘hello, goodbye, long time no see’ will greet me, that fruit and vegetables will be sold where they were sold yesterday– in short, that I can recognize myself in a recognizable world. And that much of life is ordinary and I am compelled by fate to know it, to live it, for however long.

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40 Responses to “dumb-drunk”

  1. Ravy February 9, 2010 at 11:04 am #

    *sigh…,

    • Suckingbird Keller February 9, 2010 at 11:05 am #

      hi ravy. bago ka dito ah. *_*

      • Ravy February 9, 2010 at 1:04 pm #

        oo, napadaan lang…,

        naway madaan ka din sa bahay ko minsan…,

        • Suckingbird Keller February 9, 2010 at 1:08 pm #

          hinihintay ko ang bago mong entry. published na ba kasi mgbbase ako! hahaha

          • Ravy February 9, 2010 at 1:13 pm #

            hindi pa ngayon ops…,

            baka bukas o sa isang araw…,

          • Ravy February 9, 2010 at 1:14 pm #

            isa pa…,

            alas dose ako ng madaling araw madalas mag post…,

            ang mga nakakapag base ay yung mga bumabangon ng maaga…,

          • Suckingbird Keller February 9, 2010 at 1:15 pm #

            baka matagalan pa bago ako mg online ulit. busy kasi sa skul. hehehe check ko nlng once i can get online.

  2. soiebeans February 9, 2010 at 12:08 pm #

    kung makapagsalita ka kay ravy, parang beteranong preso ka lang. haha. anyway, i wonder who the roommate is.

  3. ⓙⓞⓨⓞ February 9, 2010 at 12:30 pm #

    hmmm…. di pa ko nagbabasa haha mamaya babalik ako 😆

    • Suckingbird Keller February 9, 2010 at 3:14 pm #

      balik ka!!

      • Joyo February 10, 2010 at 5:40 am #

        dito na me…wer na u 😆 alm mo nararamdaman ko din minsan yan, kaso iniisip ko na lang ganyan talaga ang buhay parang life… be happy na lang…

        • Suckingbird Keller February 10, 2010 at 12:01 pm #

          happy naman ako *liar smile*

          hahahahahahaha. salamat sa pgbalik joyo!

  4. richard February 9, 2010 at 12:41 pm #

    what happened to the room mate? so, ang dating, parang bitin. lol.. part 2!!!!!!!

    • Suckingbird Keller February 9, 2010 at 12:43 pm #

      huuuuhhhhh. ano ba? hindi nmn important si roommate sa point ko.

      • richard February 9, 2010 at 12:45 pm #

        e yun lang kasi napansin ko. lol.. parang yun yung sa tingin ko, ang twist. lol.

      • Ravy February 9, 2010 at 1:07 pm #

        kumusta nga kaya si roommate mu?…,

        …?

  5. Marion Rubinstein February 9, 2010 at 9:39 pm #

    Hello. Great job. I did not expect this on a Wednesday. This is a great story. Thanks!

  6. Vajarl February 10, 2010 at 2:11 am #

    Gusto ko ren pumunta sa dati kong apartment. Kaso may iba ng nakatira don, baka mapagkamalan akong akyat bahay. 😀

    Yo yo yo wazzup yo! Hiphop mode ako! Haha. Kaderder. 😛

    • Suckingbird Keller February 10, 2010 at 3:19 am #

      you can go there if there’s still something in your room that is worth going.. para may emo moments ka rin. haha

      hip hop ba? ayus yan.. ano ba soundtrack natin ngaun?

      • Vajarl February 10, 2010 at 3:24 am #

        Baka itaboy ako ng mga nakatira don na hindi ko kilala. Hahaha.

        Bowowow yipiyaw yipiye!

        Teka, ayoko na maging hiphop. Nandidiri ako sa sarili ko dahil dyan eh. Hahaha.

        • Suckingbird Keller February 10, 2010 at 3:25 am #

          hahaha. high ka ngaun tsong! ano bang nakain mo? haha.

          • Vajarl February 10, 2010 at 5:58 am #

            Yo yo yo zup yo! Haha.

            Pa exlink pala ule. Nagpalit na ko ng blog. 🙂

          • Suckingbird Keller February 10, 2010 at 12:00 pm #

            nalink na kita vajarl!

  7. etchosera February 10, 2010 at 5:26 am #

    haiz minsan ganyan din ako,,,pero minsan lang un. madalang pa sa patak ng ulan 🙂

    • Suckingbird Keller February 10, 2010 at 11:47 am #

      wow. but i love the idea of rain. when it pours, it brings lots of change. or probably your feeling does something to the rain, or the way you see them..

  8. naglalambingnacute February 10, 2010 at 8:17 am #

    padaan suckingbird.. i love how you write.. paturo naman ahehe..

    ganon talaga may mga bagay na aalis o iiwan natin.. pero yun mga memories nun maalala pa din natin magbago man o mawala sila..

    • Suckingbird Keller February 10, 2010 at 12:00 pm #

      i agree. minsan you just can’t help but grow with that memories stuffed in your head. *grin*

  9. J.Kulisap February 10, 2010 at 9:37 am #

    Maiiba ‘yan.

    Huwag pangunahan ang mga bagay na hindi pa sumisilay sa iyong balintataw, magkaganun pa man, yakapin itong parang bagong sanggol na iniluwal ng isang naghihingalong ina.

    May patak ng pagkamangha, ng ibang direksyon ng hangin.

    • Suckingbird Keller February 10, 2010 at 11:46 am #

      ang lalim jkulisap. mas malalim pa sa bahay bata kung saan nanggaling ang batang iluluwal. 🙂

      • J.Kulisap February 11, 2010 at 12:17 am #

        Akala mo lamang malalim dahil hindi ito likas na taal sa iyong puso, pero isa lamang itong kapayakan ng mga salita dito sa Pilipinas.

        Kamusta?

        • Suckingbird Keller February 11, 2010 at 6:22 am #

          eto. emo. malapit na valentines.. wala pa akong date. hahahaha

          • J.Kulisap February 11, 2010 at 8:33 am #

            Hayaan na natin ‘yang date.

            Ako nga, nagpost sa FB ng announcement.

            Lover for a night.

            At least ‘yon lamang ang kaya kong i-offer.

            Wink.

          • Suckingbird Keller February 11, 2010 at 8:35 am #

            hahahaha. lover for a night lang?

          • kaye February 13, 2010 at 11:38 am #

            oo nga, JKul, lover for a night lang ba? bat naman ganun? takot sa commitment?

  10. kaye February 13, 2010 at 11:37 am #

    hmmm… ang unang naisip ko pagkabasa ko sa entry mo…ano na nangyari ke roommate? hahahaa. tas pagbasa ko sa mga comments, me ganun ding tanong. hehehe

    anyways, sometimes, when we’ve been away, it is also good to find your way to that place you’re most familiar with, and that place where you can be just yourself… no pressures, no anything. yun ba ang boarding house mo?

  11. alasais February 16, 2010 at 4:12 am #

    that’s why you have to be prepared for the unexpected, just in case.

    – tenco

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